i dont know what has gotten into me. why did i support such a big and stupid lie. i dont understand. i think i am stupid as well. or, maybe it is just me. maybe it is not what i think it is. oh well, forget about it.

i have to start studying now. end of year exams is coming and i must get at least a credit for all subjects. i will try my very best. i wont let you down, mom and dad.

anyways, happy birthday to MEI YU! all the best! :D

let's come back to me. well, i just thought of something. i dont want sorrows. i dont want cries. i want HAPPINESS! or even ELATION! man. i dont like how things are now. ):




this is cool!




okay i'll just stop here. so good night, sweet dreams, sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite! wish me luck for tomorrow.

xx

wow. i had done alot in this week! lemmie talk about it.

i helped to organize a trip to the city:
sheraton utama - arrived at 2.30pm.
listened to talks about studying in australia.
managed to get most of the books about the top universities there.
did not get to ask questions about the courses and careers as our students are craving to go to the mall so early.
was partially depressed.
the mall - ate in jolibee.
got to know the nice crepe from michelle.
accompanied xinyi to buy a webcam.
was thinking of getting mommy a present for her birthday but couldn't think of what she likes.
departed from the city at 6.30pm.
and arrived at school at 8.30pm.

hmm, alot of things are happening these days. like:
most of the students of form4science got sick, including me.
talked on the phone with friends, which rarely happens.
thought of the future and discussed about it with a friend.
went to saikit's place tonight and had fun.

oh well, that's quite all for now.

baiiii blog, ttys. <3 :D

im bored ): ):

yawww blog! sorray long time no post. was really really busy this holiday.
let's see. what i did during this hari raya holiday:
went to dad's friend's hari raya open house
went for dance practices
went to zie's open house
went to lisa's birthday party
went to bandar with grandma and uncle
did project
went for tuition only once
went for piano lessons
played badminton with cuzzie and bro
did not study. instead, went into maple world! HAHAHAHA

okay i spent this holiday quite different from other holidays. at least i did something i wanted to since last holiday. i feel a little bit of elation creeping.

man, this holiday is ending. school's reopening tomorrow! myyy.. i wanna relax more HAHA oh well, playing time's OVER! time to STUDY STUDY STUDY~

okay i go back mapling now LOL tata x3

OMG! i actually forgot to post one on my BIRTHDAY! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~~ x.x

[today]
didnt wanna help to do the trophy things cuz MALAS~ but then no choice, i wont get to do it anymore next year =\ so i will make use of everything! hmm, i was drawing at the backstage during the awarding ceremony HAHA was so bored =\ after assembly, we had physics. we had revision for the past topics, which are gonna come out for the 3rd term exam =S i wish i will do well =] during the recess time, i was rushing doing the english homework LOL and at the same time, i wrote quotes extracted from xinyi's "quotes paper" on a testpad, cuz i like quotes haha =D michelle did the word of the day and her speech was about "the importance of going to school" AHAHAA it was fun testing her memory before class time x] x] after english, we had add. maths. MARIO! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA =X i like add. maths =D but i dont really know what's the use of it in the future =S =S but i like algebra hahahaha hmm then the last subject we had today is MALAY! OMG no one's actually listening to him! hey goat, get a life. no one wants to listen to your class. MUAHAHAHAHHAA xD x.x okay, so im going to add.maths tuition soooon~ and after that, malay! at ruu's house hahahhaha =D am gonna have lots of fun x]

[what's on for tomorrow?]
hmm, will be having add.maths and chemistry lessons from 7.20 to 9.20~ and maybe gonna practice our dance after that, but i dont think i can cuz i'll be having piano lessons and must be there at 10+. ill have 2 tuitions after piano, biology and either chemistry or physics, mdm sheeja and saikit =] it's been a long time since i went to saikit's. soliah, HAHAHA x.x hmm, i guess that's the plan the next day =] okeh im gonna off now. so bubaiii~ =D

<3 me

well, i was going to say i loved you yesterday. but i thought you wouldnt say it back so i brought you some spiders because i dont like spiders but they could build you a web like the song i wrote you but then my mum said that birds sing better than i do so i found a bird to sing for you but the bird ate my spiders and now the song wont work and you'll never love me and i think i'll have a cold.

Mey, XinYi, Loong, I really really meant what I said. I really want you guys to be always HAPPY. I don't need any special presents but happiness. I guess it's a LOT more expensive than any ordinary gifts or presents right? But that is what I really want. You guys have no idea how much I really want it, I mean I WANT TO BE HAPPY WITH YOU UNTIL THE SECOND I LEAVE. Mey, honestly, what you told me really really hurt me deep inside. You said "after you've gone, our relationship will be like shuling and us." This really killed me. I have never ever thought of forgetting you guys here, and I will always and forever keep in touch with you all. By the time I'm there, mommy will have gave us a lappy each, and this means I will get to online, since the msn here's not working. I will most probably be online every day or alternate. I will never wish to break us apart. Even we'll not be as close by then, we will still be the best of friends. I will be wishing wishes for each of you. The most important thing you guys have to remember about me is that "whenever you're happy, I am too." This is me. Nothing will ever make this change. I will really really and truly LOVE AND MISS you guys! <3

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I am just TOO KIND! Too kind that it hurts a lot inside. I just want everybody to be happy. I really care for their feeling deep inside. What's unfortunate is that what i get are deceives which i "deserved" to get anyhow. But i just don't get it. I am fed up! T.T